The Issue Was Dropped

Today...

Woke up hung over.  I have to watch Weston because Tori is out of town, so I got up, changed his diaper, got him a bottle, cuddled him up, and went back to sleep...for three hours! And he slept the whole time.  It's nice sleeping with a baby.  It's like sleeping with a warm teddy bear.  Then his donor came over to take care of him, so I got to get some things done around the house and get ready for the day.

Logan and I were supposed to hang out, but it didn't happen over a miscommunication and I was super annoyed.  After the hurt I went through with Michael and that whole group of people we hung out with, I am weary of everyone.  I lost all of my trust all at once.  If my friends do something shitty, then I call them out on it.  If the shit continues, then I'm not up to dealing with it like I used to.  Michael has no idea how deep the roots of his hurt go.  He didn't just dissolve our relationship.  He dissolved the confidence I have in all of my relationships.  So I basically told Logan we weren't friends anymore...but he convinced me otherwise and the issue was dropped.

I think it's all because I really need my friends right now, and if I can't rely on them, then I blow it out of proportion and feel betrayed rather than just thinking, "it happens."  I better knock it off.

I went to Starbucks to work on my art on my own, and a guy started talking to me and asked for my number.  It gave me hope for when I move away and can't rely on school to make new friends.  When I live in Salt Lake or St George, I will have to go out and find people instead of meeting them in classes.  Scary scary! But I will be fine.  I know it.

This is what I got done today.